^ been on my mind, the entire day.
That was so true. What the tweet said :
Boys, be careful of what you said, cause one little thing you mentioned can be on a girl's mind forever.
I was so depress in French class. I wanted to scream, so much ! I wanted to just leave everything behind, run outside and scream my head off. Hoping that no one could hear me. I'm so frustrated. That line, "we don't talk that much" really hurt me. Like an arrow strike right through my chest and out on my back; breaking my fragile heart into 5 million pieces. I cared about him , so much. Like a brother of course. And his simple little sentence with a fake smiley can cause such a injure to my brain, my heart.
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What did you mean? If that's what you think , then what was all that before? All the: me meaning a lot to you; loving me no matter what happens ; I'm so important to him, like a little sister. Tell me? You have any explanation to that? Care to tell me? Cause I'm so fucking confused.
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I finally realized. Realize how hard is it to really find someone to trust ; to know that someone is being honest with you ; to know what someone really think of you ; to know how much you mean to someone. I've realized that, telling people about your stress, never work that well. They won't understand. Who knows if they care or not, there's really no point of telling. Hurts so much.
; on the bright side ...
Dance club , is going awesome so far . Everything's coming together greatly, like a puzzle piece :) That's one thing to be happy about.
Then there's Alex , :) best boyfriend I ever had in my life , haha.
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January 22nd, going to China for two weeks. Visiting grandpa, he's sick. I should pray for him , more often i mean. When i get there, i'm gonna have all the fun I can have before I come back to this place. Vacation, that's what it's called. Vacation.
I need to get away for everything. Two weeks is enough , I think. Hopefully.
Then for once I'll get away from EVERYTHING, as if my life in Canada never happened.
End here tonight
veewang