Too difficult , too hard.

I feel like crying. This entire year, I've been crying more than usual. 


Matt says:
 cause i do bug you la (: 
 well.
 we dont talk that much ^^'
 iunno
 haha
'-                [ VEEWANG ] says:
 sorry , i've been really busy lately .
 get home at like 7 everyday :\
Matt says:
 aha i undersannd (:
'-                [ VEEWANG ] says:
 it prob gon be like that till christmas break starts .
 haha , i think im bugging u , sorry . go clean , i`ll do hmk now .
 later.
Matt says:
 oyu dont bug me..
 aha ok. 
 laters.




this is bugging me,  so much . he said he's trying his best, but I know he's not.
I've been trying to get close to him, really trying. Doing what Mich was asking me to do: Take care of him, be there for him. Just how am I supposed to do that when the door's tightly shut and locked. No other way for me to get in. 


I wanna say goodbye. Permanently, but I can't. I can't let him go, my worries for him grow everyday I don't talk to him. I afraid to grow apart from him cause I'm sort of used to having him around. Now that he mentioned himself, that we don't talk that much. I understood. All those things he said, probably was just trying to be nice. 


Totally forgot I was writing a blog , anyway , i`ll do this tomorrow.
Going to sleep.


Goodnight .

end here. 

veewang